Time to Just Be Me

Fig. 1 happy Mimi

The past year has been and interesting one, to say the least. Many good thing have happened: my band got steady gig, met some... interesting... people, found out I am to be an aunt, and I had an amazing first fund-raiser for Pin-ups in Paradise.

All this aside, I also got into an accident, got arrested (long story there), had a mini break down, had three deaths in two months time, and quit my job. Well, the last thing is actually very positive, but we'll get to that later.

Here I am, though, and I am happy. Happier than I have been in a loooooong while.

Fig. 2 amazing series of faces I did in
conjunction with Gemini Photography 

How is this possible? Because I am still free to be me.

I still get to create, I still get to make music, I still get to choose how I live, I still have the chance to do exactly what I want. The main difference is now I have the time to do it. No excuses. Shit or get off the pot.

The biggest surprise is... it's working. I have never felt more confident, more secure, or more successful.

Painting Again

I am so excited to be painting again! Moved into my new studio and put it to use today. It isn't quite as comfy as my old space yet, but I have paint on my hands and my apron on so I'm happy.

I didn't paint much since I'm out of practice, but I did four bags and a rock. Not too shabby if I do say so myself. Now I feel like I can start producing and selling again.  All I need are buyers! Can't wait to get into full production mode!

Lens Cleaner

There are days when I wake up and feel out of sorts, like I don't belong here, or I forgot something big. Today is one of those days and I have to remind myself that it has a lot to do with how I look at the situation. I shouldn't feel this way, and even though it is hard, I have to talk my way to a better mindset. My mood may not change right away, but knowing that what I feel isn't what I think helps with the acceptance of an improper mood. 

Just because I feel like I don't belong, doesn't mean someone else feels that way about me. Ask someone else. They may tell you the exact opposite. You may realize that they feel that you are the most important thing in that moment. You may find out you have given someone else a sense of belonging that they didn't have before.

It is merely at how you see this type of situation. Maybe, like me, every once in a while a good glasses cleaning is in order. Polish off your lenses and look again. The situation may not be as bleak as you perceive. Maybe you just need some lens cleaner.

Caprese Salad

I'm at XO tonight and just ordered a beautiful rendition of a caprese. Yum!
Happy eating!

A Silly, Wonderful Day...

I really had an awkward sort of nice day. It started with the realization that this was the end of a very large chapter of my life. Not only am I leaving Skyland on a positive note with a clearer frame of mind and a better outlook on life, but I am also returning to my island of misfit toys sans a few things I had when I left... There's a lot and it is greatly personal so feel free to get a hold of me some other way to inquire, thank you. Besides the emotional dichotomy I am facing, I know now that I have the strength needed to get through it all.

Anyway, back to my day... I realized that I am ok at a few different things and that was nice, I cried a lot during my last session, DBT was all cheer-leading statements and also made me a wreck, picked up some awesome thing I created from the greenhouse with some extras and got some presents for myself (I made them). The day ended with a blondie (type of brownie) that I received.

Up and down. Up and down. Up and down. It was nice to be up and down for the right reasons instead of for no reason at all. I DID get to wear my new hair bow! You can see it on Facebook or Google+. I made it last night. It was like I was wrapping my self up and presenting the polished up new Mimi to the world. I have a few dents, but I run better than ever!